I always want to sing, and I always want to get someone else to sing. I wrote this song for our concept album based on the ancient Coptic text, The Pistis Sophia. When I was 22 or so I was obsessed with the book, it would lead to me learning some Coptic and even starting a project to translate the book. That never got very far but around 18 years later I started writing a suite of songs for a concept album for our band Fist of Kindness to record. Rich Gross WAS Fist of Kindness, he played banjo and lap steel, then later started singing but wouldn’t write songs.
This song is based on the seventh repentance of the Pistis Sophia, which is based in turn on Psalm 25. “Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions.” This song digs into my feelings of having gone the wrong way, of having been misled by my culture and the marketing that was directed at me.
lyrics
When I was young, I was a fool, had no idea what I should do. Everything I thought I knew, that I believed to be true, was just someone selling me an attitude or a thing, a way not to think...
When I was young I was a fool. I wish that I had had a clue. I was such a stupid tool! Now I'm still kind of confused. My confidence was misplaced, I was kind of a disgrace. I looked good, but what good did it do?
credits
from Stand Firm: Selected Songs 1993-2018,
released December 17, 2018
Fist of Kindness
Orin Buck- bass, recording
Cassandra Victoria Chopourian- trumpet
Steve Dworkin- accordion
Rich Gross- banjo, vocals
David Gould- drums
Gary Heidt- guitar, vocals
Matt Metzgar- percussion, vocals
Gary Heidt is a founding member of the Perceiver of Sound League, Mammals of Zod and Fist of Kindness. Born in Texas, he lived in NYC for a little under 30 years and now lives in Greensboro. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gary_Heidt
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